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Thursday, March 4, 2010,3/04/2010 07:37:00 PM

W T H

You expect me to smile when I'm not even happy and more than annoyed? Hahah how ironic. You were the one who left us with no choice. If the house is too big, then get a maid? WHAT is your problem?

Primary concern? If we are your primary concern, you wouldn't even have sold it. Yeah you asked, but even if we didn't agree, you won't even care. Cos you're bent on selling it already. Look, next time don't even ask. Cos you didn't even ask me before selling it and buying a new one. Thanks for nothing.

FYI I'm moving not because I have no money -.-
Don't mind me, just PMS-ing.

Can you so-called "fans" stop bothering 2PM?

Even if I'm not a fan of 2PM, I find it really heart-breaking the way "fans" turned on 2PM. How can you even call yourselves fans when you insult and boycott 6PM when a member leaves permanently and the rest have to put on a smile to hide it?
You guys just ultimately disgrace Kpop fans.
Do you understand what masks are? Obviously, they are putting on masks and smiling & acting happy on the outside even though they are broken on the inside because obviously, they can't really act all sad even though they want to, because they are in the entertainment industry where they are paid to entertain. And again obviously, you can't entertain with a sad face, that's just
all wrong.

Please use your brains.
Then again, do you even have one?

Even if you "fans" aren't their fans any longer - because you think they are "traitors"(traitors? Please, grow up)
because of how they treated Jaebum or whatever- how can you do this to these 6 people who were once your idols? Does idols maybe, ring a bell?
Have you thought of what Jaebum did to them? No, cos you only think selfishly.

Even if you stop idolizing them, how can you blame these 6 people who worked hard to reach their dreams only to find it dashed because of multiple mistakes of one of their members?
I really cannot understand why people are so poisonous these days.

Even if you turn your backs on them, just don't bother!

STOP BOTHERING ABOUT THEM.

Which part of that sentence do you not understand?
STOP bothering, instead of being antis, which is frankly one of the most irritating and retarded things in the world.
All you do is blame the remaining 6 members and JYP instead of thinking about what Jaebum did so wrong that he had to leave. Of course, I'm not saying everybody should blame Jaebum but instead of BLAMING anybody at all, focus instead on how to support them through this dashed-dreams-and-hopes period instead of finding out who's really at fault or just plainly insulting them? That's just horrible and ridiculous.

I shall not talk about this anymore, my blood boils at the thought of it.

Finally, my own life!
This had got to be one of the worst weeks ever.

First JAYJAY D: NEVER COME. PLEASE COME TOM! My birthday will be totally ruined if you don't come tom. It's not like I want to be in a bad mood if you don't come, but I'll just be in a bad mood.

Secondly, I failed my History. Actually it's not that bad cos the term 1 PPR for history's just based on ONE GRADED ASSIGNMENT, which unfortunately, I failed. Oh did I forget to mention half the class failed, and nobody got A? Anyway, that doesn't really matter to me(academics) but it just ends on to the pile you know.

Thirdly, tests this week. Chem and SS. Yeah yeah I know compared to Sec4 it's nothing but whatever, just let me indulge in my grievances for once. It just piles up to this enormous mountain of bad moods you know?

Fourthly, it doesn't even feel birthday-ish. Actually I think this will be one of the worst birthdays ever if Jayjay doesn't come and I'm serious. You may laugh but whatever. I don't find it funny at all.
Actually daily, it hasn't been that bad. But if you add it all up, the equation sucks.

Yeah, that's all the crap actually. Were you expecting more? Sorry, I thought you would have learnt not to expect anything from me after this long.

All I want to do is find
a way back into love