hello(:

so damn tired, just came back from footdrills session, 9-12, boy, WAS IT TOUGH! especially having to learn the LOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG P.O.P drills commands! it's like SUPEEER DEE DUPER LONG...one command is like 10 sec! maybe exaggerating a bit but very long! LOOOONG, wayyyyy wayyyy looong. when I first heard it, I shaked my head and blinked my eyes a few times haha. and which leg to bang with sometimes gets confused, bahanti is like...confusing for me I don't know which leg to bang.
and our PC, Rachael Pung so strict de lah always tell us 90 degrees, foot pointing down. other mdms not as strict haha>:D

And so friggin' hot I could feel the sweat trickling down my back, stand in the sun, you like ah? CHEEE somemore FACING the sun RAWRS~and we can't smile.....actually, you wouldn't really feel like smiling haha>:D
some squaddies even not feeling well have 2 go and rest.
But actually.......quite fun:D haha I'm so contradictory.........but you know during the combined footdrills with sec 2s, I messed up lah! so screwed D: and it was super embarrassing!>:\ and I always forget to BANG! and I don't like SATU DUA SATU DUA because if you screw up, you will sabo your squaddies and that is not a nice feeling D: I don't like being in the middle row also.

and rachael pung keep emphasizing that must do properly or else will sabo sec 2s, but it's really quite hard! i mean, cant be perfect right. just try your best can already, and like I scared the sec 2s get angry because like, we cannot do properly....but then they already do for like at least HALF a year right? compared to us....I mean also half a year but then, we have very little CCA days.......only once a week so even more pressure! and during P.O.P, we only get one chance, so really stressed.....sometimes will forget de lah, anyway, to err is human:D

but I felt quite alot of stress and pressure. somemore sec 2s beside me, and they do like so PERFECTLY and SERIOUSLY until make me feel so lousy D: really quite demoralizing but never demoralise me HAHA :D

and I hate it when the mdms shout at us>:\ I know we are very very irritating and annoying when some of us just don't want to open up our mouths, I know the sec 2s are much louder than us, I know that we are SUPER DEE DUPER soft, I can't even hear it myself and some times I get irritated too with some of my squaddies who refuse to shout, I know that we are not up to standard, I know I am not up to standard, I know that we are quite lousy, I know the mdms are sometimes disappointed with us, but yellow batch mdms, we seriously don't want to disappoint you guys for P.O.P, so we will keep striving for the best kay?:) I know that we make you super mad sometimes........ :(some times when I watch my own squad, I can see that, some are not putting in the effort, it's just slipshod work.......haish....but never mind, we still have time to improve!:)must be optimistic:)

I don't agree with Kayla Koh lohh! st john is NOT NOT NOT sianz! so many things to learn, first aid THEORY and PRACTICAL, and you have to PERFECT PERFECT PERFECT your footdrills until cannot perfect already, until like, THAT particular standard, must shout until no more voice or else mdms will scold you....it's really all about discipline! but it's definitely NOT sian! I mean marching is not sian, footdrills is NOT sian! if you do it properly and smartly without fooling around ,I'm sure there will be a sense of pride and accomplishment,right? If you don't have, means ur not normal.haha^^ It takes time to adjust to the strict disciplinary, but time will solve everything! okay not everything but alot of things:D and saving lives is the best part! knowing what you can do, knowing what TO do, knowing that you can help in an accident, knowing that it is your responsibility, it's really MEANINGFUL to see a life saved in front of ur own eyes, by yourself. isn't it nice???? it's all warm and comfy inside your heart hhaa. I think st john is the most wonderful, and definitely the MOST meaningful CCA. I mean, the rest are like, GOOD also, but then not AS meaningful as St John which can save lives right?

I mean, yea, the performing arts can bring joy but can save lives? No. NPCC, teaches you survival skills, st john's too! can it teach you how to save a life? No! sports, can make money, but does it teach you how to save a life? then again, no! guides, teaches you survival skills, does it teach you first aid? No! see what I mean?^^ haha I nevr regretted joining st john...maybe once or twice but that was in the past, look forward to the future with an anticipating spirit.

GO SJ! I <3>

ok enough. hha. buhhbyeeeee:)