do you guys think I'm changing? No right?? I don't think sooooo.......am I becoming more EMO???? NO! I am NOT. even if I'm changing, I'm becoming DEEPER hehe:D

I have just started wondering if I have ever been in love before....or was it all delusions and illusions from the start? I hope not...........I think there is something weirdly wrong with me......just cried just now because I was reading Chicken Soup for the Woman's Soul, a story about a woman leaving her child forever because of adoption.
You know what? Not all women who so called "abandon" their child is heartless! I mean, some of them really have no choice! Some are poor and are not able to afford the luxury of a child! Do you think someone likes to have their own little angel taken away from them?? Do you think they want to abandon their own child? Do you think they want to leave their child? Do you think they are not in pain when they think about not being able to be the first one to hear their child's first word? Do you think they don't want to see their child growing up? Do you think they don't want to hear their child say "I love you" to them?? Do you think they are that heartless??? NO! It's this misconception the world has about these women! It's not their fault though SOME are seriously heartless but that is not the point. Don't you think they are brave enough already to actually even give birth to their child when the other half is not there for them?
Ok this is a bit weird, I am talking as if I am EXPERIENCED...which I am not...haha but what I am saying is TRUE.

And how about those people in Myanmar and SiChuan? Can anybody actually REALLY imagine and understand what they are going through now?? Especially Myanmar when their selfish government only care about themselves and money. I guess their motto is "money makes the world go round"! Each day delayed is a great amount of lives lost! How can they be so selfish to think only about "ME ME ME"! When the world wants to render help to them, they close up and block people with WALLS! HOW CAN THEY??? HOW CAN the SELF RIGHTEOUS "GOVERNMENT" be so selfish? Isn't the government supposed to actually CARE for their PEOPLE???????????? I don't understand!
And people say they want to help but can't be bothered to actually pick up the phone and call the hotline to donate. Actions speak louder than words.

Treasure those around you. Treasure your loved ones. Never be afraid to say I love you to the special someone. You never know when a disaster or a rare disease might come along one day, even in Singapore. Expect the unexpected. ALWAYS. Never be afraid to care for that someone. Never be afraid to be rejected. Don't live, to regret. Don't LIVE IN REGRET. You know what you're doing? I don't think so. Just try to IMAGINE the pain of those Sichuan and Myanmar people who never got a SECOND CHANCE to say those three words to those they love. Imagined already? That pain you imagined is only half of what they experience. Imagine that pain ON YOU. TREASURE what you have.

Let's see...anymore untouched topics? Okay I don't think so.....haha. no more philosophy:)

Now, on to today's CGEEE<3333>:\
And shimei's leg was apparently hurting LOL.
okay, we took bus 11 there and seriously, it's like DEEEEEEEEEEEESERTED>:D
Then Jessica CAMEEEEE. and there was like this PUMPFEST thing where people climb up difficult rock walls! like curvy and all. quite fun to watch haha.
Sooooo we went to check out the bowling which was entirely FULL.-.- apparently, our CGEEE leaders didn't plan again LOL and I don't really want to embarrass myself in front of the boys hehe X]
went to the arcade hehe played the drums thing...not as fun because not as many people playing as the last time I played it and EVIL jessica didn't really want to play with me>:\ and like vanessa, deborah and shimei kept sticking at the parapara machine....I thought you were supposed to use your feet to dance, not your HANDS to MOVE about????o_0
and we played some LAMEEEE games. haha

then we went to check out the ice skating. which was EXPENSIVE. EXPENSIVE. VERY EXPENSIVE.20 DOLLARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NONONONONO and Jessica was like I WANNA GO ICE SKATING I WANNA GO ICE SKATING!! then I was like NONONONONO! and anyways, two ways also cannot.
bowling, girls object. HAHA i didn't object.>:D
ice skating. boys object. HAHA i didn't object>:D
split up. everybody never object. HAHA i ......neutral....but the point is for us to get to know each other right??? LOL as said by the CG leaders;D

so in the end, we went to eat lunch. and then like, I took the seat beside someone's bag and I didn't know it was jonathan wu's. and Jessica was like HAHA i knew you wanted to get that seat.
i was like ........-.-(rolling of eyes) haha just kidding I was like.....how you say? exasperated? something liddat i suppose. then i was like PUH-LEASE i didn't even know it's his! then she just kept on GRINNING LOL. so funny lah she(: then she say I cute uhhh. NO.LOL
haha then you know, I got no space on the table to put my food then he move away some of the things and move his chair like a bit scared of me liddat. i don't think so but from my perspective, it's rather funny i'm laughing out loud now. anyway it seriously was funny quite cute sia the scene.
then I sit down then the table is like SUPER cramped i tell you, barely space to move my elbow to eat. and you know my cgeeee the boys and girls rather conservative haha...some anyway. so anyways, it's like, we accidentally touch elbow to elbow then like haha very funny i also dunno how 2 EXPLAIN! LOL haha just very funny and cute!^^ then he likw 缩回去or something....then i was like going to laugh le^^ quite cute lah actually LOL.
the chicken rice i ate was horrible. and I saw his plate everything finish then i was like...AHH. HELP. so embarrassing LOL. then in the end shimei also never finish so never mind^^ and eliel was like so hungry LOL. his 4 dollars hokkien mee didn't look 4 dollars, just like mine didn't. RAWRS~ but they all say look like nehh? weirdddd LOL

went to the toilet, before that, deborah, shimei and vanessa went to buy a card for eliel on the pretext of uhh. buying sweets? LOL and he felt for it!MUAHAHA:D
then we all had to sign it, so we went to the toilet and sign....then eliel went up to check the bowling thing while all the boys were standing outside talking. and vanessa told us that so they ran to give the boys to card and shoo them inside the toilet haha damn funny lahh. and jessica write so long message then shimei was like having the jitters LOL
and eliel came back:

Eliel: (tells vanessa and the rest about bowling) wait where are they?
deborah& vanessa: toilet.
eliel: what the?(guys come out from toilet all together)
eliel: why did all of you go..?
everyone: *laughs* deborah&vanessa&hannah *extra loudly*
taken from deborah's blog haha.
damn funny lah and his reaction when deborah gave him the card was like.........Oh.
HAHA

then we went to the.....uhh. i think we decided to take a movie and INDIANA JONES was like in 3 minutes.-.- what a last min movie HAHA.
then we finally decided to watch it....no time to buy popcorn also eeeee yer>:\
haha the show quite nice nehh=)
except got some parts i cover my eyes...but quite exciting:)

then we were like walking around on the first floor and we took the lift to cold storage and the lift was rather cramped with like 12 people in the LIFT! and was a bit squashed but not that bad, then we went UP.-.- haha we were back 2 the arcade level. then a couple walked in....and since I was at the entrance of the lift there, I had to move in and backwards and i almost walked into jonathan wu.......luckily was facing the other side...then me and jessica were like separated then we look at each other then she go laugh at me sia! RAWRS~
but quite funny nehh HAHA>:D

then the couple got off at the first floor, the man was like halfway walking out, then the woman was like...here meh? in chinese and he was like yes and they went out, and eliel said they were scared of us HAHA>:D

went to the basement
walked around with Jessica in cold storage and she bought soursop, i bought one whole box of oreos and a mars bar, and like everyone was waiting for us?? SO PAISEHH but turns out, the other girls were buying ice cream =P
so we walked around moreeee...quite lameee haha.....did nothing much...hehe....and went back 2 the arcade-.-
haha vanessa dragged hannah there for para para.....then a short whileafter, jessica left and we were dismissed about 5 something? then i went 2 buy doughnuts HAHA. then waited for my father at the entrance and he saw that sportslink got sale so he go in and see, then i help him find but dun have haha.

then went back KALLANG BAHRU for dinner...chicken rice again haha but MUCH MUCH better>:D
went to NTUC! bought rice, I wanted to carry it! 10kg one sia! HEAVY...i treated it as training for my BABY haha! but super heavy, if that is really my baby, i think already die liao le LOL
then in the end only need to buy 5kg de RAWRS my evil father make me carry 10kg de for so long.......haha then at home when i put the rice down, i was like don't eat my baby! haha SUPER LAMEEEE I know;DD

haha bullying lucas just now....nono i not supposed to admit...no lohh i just teasing him de MUAHAHA>:D fun de lor^^but dun be offended nehh but anyway he going away to bintan for 3 days so he wouldnt know MUAHAHA>:D very evil i know;DD
but anyways, bon voage! i don't know how to spell GRAHHS
take care!!!!LOL. have to keep the joint blog ALIVEEEEE.
anyways, now 12 plus le!!! was talking 2 jamie, telling her 2 tag only when I finish but then she had to go before i finish HAHA and lucas went for vacation already LO so LONELY im so lonely...haha its a soooong>:D

kays gtg BYEEEEEEEEEEEE <3

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