I WISH it was mutual,
But ironically,
It is my WISHful thinking.

Everyday,
my life is the same,
doing the same routine over and over again.
My life is stagnant,
but only when I'm with you,
Then I cheer up.

Honestly?
I rather die one million times than love you,
But maybe it is destined that what will be between us is a one-sided love.

I hate you for having fun with others,
laughing happily,
meanwhile, making me jealous in the process.
I love you becuz....I have no choice.
I like you for your peculiarness,
so please change yourself,
So I can stop loving you,
But I am not sure even if you change yourself,
Will I ever stop loving you...
I must admit,
it is virtually impossible.

I always turn to you,
But in turn,
you let me down instead,letting down my hopes
AND
my dreams are crushed by you.

You are forever so distant,
So cool,
So aloof, and most of all,
So indifferent to my feelings.
Don't you know that I really love you,
With all my heart?
You failed me again.

I loved you and never expected anything in return
I entrusted my everything to you,
My love, my heart, my mind, and my strength.
And I always need your license to let me love others,
but you never license me,
let alone talk 2 me.

You are my bright shinging star,
never dimming.
I'm devoted to you and you alone.
I'm as good as being infatuated with you,
But what good will that do?

I don't know why I am even writing this,
becuase you won't know how much I love you.
Even if you read this, I'm sure your reaction will be
Ignoring what I wrote,
and maybe ignoring me too.

(我的心好痛
你知道吗?)

I'm lonely, do you know?
Just that day, you decided to wait for your friends,
and stayed back for while.
It made me jealous, do you know?
Without you to walk with me,
My world became uncertain and colourless,
Boring and meaningless.
Did you know?

You don't know alot about me, I'm sure
but maybe you just don't bother to find out...

You don't know what it's like when your love is not acquitted,
because everybody loves you,
and gives you what you want.
You don't understand me,
and you don't seem to even know me sometimes.
You don't know what it's like, what it's like...

At the bus stop, minutes later, I saw you again
But did you talk to me while waiting? NO
Then, my friend saw my bus coming and her immediate reaction was
GOODBYE
She seemed to want you for herself.
I went but you didn't even bother to say goodbye to me,
and later, i cried and cried.
Did you sense it?
Is it that hard just to say goodbye? Am I that revolting to you?
I guess so.

Is this what my life will be?
Crying according to your whims?
Is THAT SO?
If it is like that,
I'm willingly to die NOW.
CONTINUED NEXT TIME...

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